Caring about what others say, quote, or misquote.
This is the part I actually enjoy: what exactly is it inside me that is upset?
Following that thread can lead to interesting places. There are so many levels and shades inside one. Everyone can recognize pride, of course. And a degree of arrogance.
There's also the the fear hiding somewhere. It shows in a desire for control: of oneself, one's day, one's life. Of others [what right do I have to control others??]
And the perfectionist. Who wants everything just so! A place for everything and everything in its place. Common sense and logic should be maintained! [but we shouldn't forget that "there is nothing less common than common sense" :) ]
Then there is the idealist: be good. Do good. Fine. Does that mean that others have to hold to my standard? Should I force them?? Get mad when they don't?
And the part that desires security. [I tend to lack that part] To be able to depend on certain people. For days to be predictable, and therefore manageable.
Do I need people's approval?
We should beware of the word 'need'. It often indicates a desire to abdicate responsibility.
And here's the bonus: the more you discover of yourself, the less upset you get with others.
NB: discovering does not mean criticizing and judging. Just observing and paying gentle attention.
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